Seize the Day!

What exactly does that mean? I know it means don't wait for tomorrow because we aren't promised today. So go out and do what you want cause it might be your only chance! Sounds like a good plan. But what do I want? Maybe the question should be, "What should I do?" I really don't know what I should do. I wish it was easy. I wish God would write me a letter and just tell me what to do. I really don't know what it is. I do try and figure it out but.............

One option is build a family. I can definitely see the beauty of building a family. Getting married (which I am doing) and making my life's focus my family. Kids, wife, the whole thing. This is a beautiful option.

Mission work (can you get any more vague?). Should I try and run an orphanage somewhere? What if there is a place God has set for me and I just don't see it. I could be ignoring it. Afraid to do it. It seems to me, if mission work is what God wants from me, there would be little question. But I am full of question.

Maybe I am just meant to be a resource. Someone that can fullfill needs of others doing the mission work. Someone that can use his own skills to build resources that others can take advantage of. The missionaries need support from home. Could that be how I seize the day?

I'm not helpful today. The only thing I am able to do today is to share the fact that I love Jesus, and have no idea what he wants from me. There are so many things that I could do, I seem to do none because all the options are just too much for me. I just want everyone to start trying to do some of the things they think God wants them to do. I haven't done that in awhile. But I believe I am about to start.