Seize the Day!

What exactly does that mean? I know it means don't wait for tomorrow because we aren't promised today. So go out and do what you want cause it might be your only chance! Sounds like a good plan. But what do I want? Maybe the question should be, "What should I do?" I really don't know what I should do. I wish it was easy. I wish God would write me a letter and just tell me what to do. I really don't know what it is. I do try and figure it out but.............

One option is build a family. I can definitely see the beauty of building a family. Getting married (which I am doing) and making my life's focus my family. Kids, wife, the whole thing. This is a beautiful option.

Mission work (can you get any more vague?). Should I try and run an orphanage somewhere? What if there is a place God has set for me and I just don't see it. I could be ignoring it. Afraid to do it. It seems to me, if mission work is what God wants from me, there would be little question. But I am full of question.

Maybe I am just meant to be a resource. Someone that can fullfill needs of others doing the mission work. Someone that can use his own skills to build resources that others can take advantage of. The missionaries need support from home. Could that be how I seize the day?

I'm not helpful today. The only thing I am able to do today is to share the fact that I love Jesus, and have no idea what he wants from me. There are so many things that I could do, I seem to do none because all the options are just too much for me. I just want everyone to start trying to do some of the things they think God wants them to do. I haven't done that in awhile. But I believe I am about to start.

Material

It is so hard to figure out where to stop. What size house should you have? What type of car should you drive? Is a motorcycle excessive? Two? How about 2 vacations a year? Where is the line to stop buying things for yourself?

This is something I have been trying to figure out for awhile now. And every year, the more I get, the more I want. Its a horrible cycle. There is so much out there we shouldn't even care about. But we do. I do. And it saddens me.

I'm trying to beat it. I'm trying to not want all the extravigant things. But I fail. Cause I can afford the things I don't need. The things I don't really want, but strive for anyway. Its sad. I know it makes me sad. I can be so much more.

My present goal is to get the house and the yard finished where I can have what I want for the rest of my life. Or at least till the future kids are gone. But I am afraid that I am just making a mark in the future that I can press forward whenever I need to. I reach goal and then I just want a boat. Then I just want some land. Want Want Want Want Want.

But where is the give in that. Where is humanity helped by this? Its not. So much money spent for one man to be happy. There are so many people out there in need of help and I keep spending money on myself. So my new years resolution is to learn that you have to do what is right now. Not later. Now. Start giving now. Start sharing with others now. Its what Jesus wants us to do.